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| ka-pow |
[Nov. 6th, 2009|01:00 am] |
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[Nov. 5th, 2009|02:22 am] |
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It's time to pack up my room. In high school i used to throw out half of what a owned every few months. An empty white space. That's what i need. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2009|06:50 pm] |
Why are we so passively tolerant of our fellow citizen's shenanigans?
Picture some undergrad who has long hair and hasn't shaved in weeks, playing badly on his guitar "Stairway to Heaven* somewhere on campus, creating nothing but grating noise because every note it out of tune, and distracting everyone who's just trying to get to class and pass their midterms.
Why do we tolerate such behavior? It's clearly detrimental to public health, and disrupts the general harmony of society. Maybe we believe too much in individual freedom. Maybe it's time to reign back in some of these freedoms. |
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| Jealousy makes people say the weirdest things. |
[Nov. 1st, 2009|11:27 pm] |
"And just when I thought it was safe to put down my pen
She said maybe I will let you fall in love with me again
Maybe I will let you fall for loving me again" |
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| Study Abroad! |
[Nov. 1st, 2009|05:32 pm] |
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Hello, everyone! I'm looking for some advice for all of the lovely pre-med students out there:
I'm planning my schedule for the next semester (and beyond), with an intention to study abroad for either spring or fall semester, probably in junior year. Has anyone already done this, or are there a few among us who are also planning this? I'm just wondering how other people have managed to balance pre-med requirements with a semester abroad, during which requirements usually can't be fulfilled.
Any advice/info is welcome! Thanks!
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| Didn't even put up a fight, didn't even make a sound |
[Nov. 1st, 2009|09:23 am] |
I'm taking this moment, while I feel good, to write.
Lately I wake up in wonderful moods, dance around a lot, and have generally too much energy for everyone around me to deal with before breakfast. The day goes on, I settle in to what you might call normal, & then around sunset, something happens- some little, non-thing, sometimes a thought, or a totally innocent statement someone else makes, or a friendly phone call, an invite to somewhere I don't really want to go, sometime I bend the wrong way & hurt my ankle. It's anything, any tiny, totally inconsequential thing, and it's like, something snaps inside me, and I'm very suddenly a wreck. Thus, last night's post. I really need to be on Effexor, I know that, it's just, expensive, and hard to get, through a shrink, and around my mom, who doesn't fully support the idea.
I realized several things in Vegas, but one of them was that I'd really like to be more fun. I think I like a lot of down time & take things sometime too seriously, and part of my depression thing is that I never really trust that anyone likes me. I always think my friends have some ulterior motive, or that behind my back they consider me a joke, or that they only hang out with me because of who I'm dating, or whatever. It's really shitty of me to be so suspicious of people I love, and of people who, in all fairness, love me. But it's just some paranoia complex, and the logical theory as to why is that I assume there's no way other people could actually really like me because, I don't much like myself at those points, and I can't see why anyone else would. So last night I was invited to this Halloween party, that pretty much all of my friends were attending, but I didn't go. I should have, but I didn't. I especially avoid Tony when I'm in shaky, nonsensical moods like I have been lately, because he's seen me at my worst, and I think it might have freaked him out a little bit. I mean, really, who wants to be around that?
Anyway to conclude this post, I had an important realization this morning: I am the type of person who really, really needs to have quantifiable measures of success or failure in my life at all times. When I was in school, I had grades. Numbers I earned based on the work I did, that were solid, ordinal representations of how well I was doing. I need that, always. Numbers, checklists, goals. Without them, no matter how well I might be doing, I always feel sort of lost and insecure. I don't know how I'm going to assess myself that way, but it's good to realize that it will help. |
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[Oct. 31st, 2009|11:47 pm] |
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I can watch myself falling apart at the seams again, as if this is happening to someone else. AGAIN. |
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| algorithms class question (again) |
[Oct. 31st, 2009|01:30 am] |
hi! i'm back, since the people here were so helpful last time. sorry to spam with my questions :(
i'm thinking of taking an algorithms course at berkeley city college over the summer instead, since i think i will need the knowledge sooner than i can take the prerequisites for cs170, even though many of you said that the material from cs61B that carried over to cs170 was stuff i could pick up without actually taking cs61b. since i have never done any java or any of the cs61 sequence before, i figure that that probably won't be the case for me. also, taking cs61a so that i can take cs61b...so that i can take cs170 is definitely overkill and i'll be learning much more than i will actually need.
the algorithms course at berkeley city college lists a programming course in C as a prerequisite. i know a lot of people have self-taught themselves C, and i'm wondering if any of you have done this and how to go about doing it?
thanks so much for the help! :) |
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| History 12 |
[Oct. 30th, 2009|05:57 pm] |
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I was wondering if anyone had electronic copies of their notes that they would feel comfortable sharing. I am way behind on the class and don't have complete notes for most of the lectures. I actually added the class late and was embarrassed to ask for help then, but now the situation is truly dire. I know it's my own damn fault, but if anyone out there has their notes in electronic form I would be so grateful for the help. If there is anyone who has taken the class in the past and has notes, that would also help. I had a really terrible time with the midterm and realize that if I want to pass I need to catch up!! Thanks in advance! |
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[Oct. 29th, 2009|11:02 pm] |
lost count of the gators, at least one croc, wanting bad to see a manatee, snorkeling twice, totally bad ass, speaking of bad ass lauren arrived today! We've got florida names, samiami, kai west, kerriglades, key lauren, gotta go, the best hostel ive been has a hookah with my name all over it
stop dwelling on maryam, not worth it, im on vacay |
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[Oct. 29th, 2009|12:59 am] |
There is so much I've been wanting to write about. But it just never comes out. It swells, and dies. For time, for attention, for practicality, for fear of failure, for fear of getting lost in translation. I have to look back at things and realize that sometimes sadness comes between me & the people I love, and drives us apart. Sometimes two people in the same boat have nothing to offer each other. But sometimes, I realize that the reason I love someone is because they know what it is to really suffer.
I know this sounds like melodrama, but it's just reflection. Otherwise there's Vegas, traffic tickets, toastmasters, FNL 04, the weather, & my diploma finally arriving in the mail. |
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| awesome list, 28 October 2009 |
[Oct. 28th, 2009|05:22 pm] |
-I fried an egg! and put it on a sandwich and delighted in it!
-I weighed in at 120 today and fit nicely into clothes that were tight before
-Sabrina is coming for a long weekend to see me graduate!
-I got a cute acrylic Peugeot salt mill which replaces the sketchy rusted mill I threw out a couple weeks ago
-I got a cookie mold of a teddy bear holding a littler teddy bear, and I will make cookies with it and mail them to my mom, which will be awesome.
-We turned on the heater last night and I wasn't freezing (though I was freezing in the world today)
-going to a story party |
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[Oct. 28th, 2009|04:47 pm] |
It's happening again. We danced! |
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| Peace Corps |
[Oct. 28th, 2009|11:30 am] |
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Has anyone here applied for or have served in the Peace Corps? Is the application process competitive? I read that most people drop out during the application process since it is so long and that they only outright reject 5-10% of applicants. Is this true? Is it a good experience serving in another country for 2 years? I've read the book "River Town", which is a memoir about a man who taught English in China for two years for the Peace Corps, and it seems like it was a really great experience for him. Any thoughts? |
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| HELP! HELP! HELP! |
[Oct. 26th, 2009|06:51 pm] |
i'm having trouble adjusting from PC to a MAC.
i'm still going on my shitty PC, avoiding the time it's gonna take to teach myself everything on a mac. i'm still using paintshop to retouch/resize pictures instead of photoshop cs4. i've sat here and really tried to teach myself random little things, and still i don't know why the mac doesn't read my camera when i connect it?
where the fuck are all my pictures?!
just a bunch of little things don't make any sense to me. i figured out how to use the clone brush, but that's like pretty much it! where is the smudge brush on photoshop?! how do you only sharpen/blur one small area at a time instead of the entire picture? why do pictures paste of top of each other instead of a new window?
omgggg, so many things i don't understand...
i need someone to come over and give me a one on one lesson whenever i'm home... or maybe someone can go to aim and answer a few things for me? i'd really fucking appreciate it! this means so much to me!
i'd like to get this shit down asap! |
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| I'm in Miami Bitch |
[Oct. 26th, 2009|05:11 pm] |
I can't believe how fucking amazing this place has been so far, far exceeding my hopes and dreams, last night was an early sunday evening coming back to our hostel sometime after 4AM only to have the hottie behind the counter give us shit for not partying hard enough...
THE ATLANTIC!!!!!!!! Oh my fucking god I am in love with the Ocean, and this weather, we're in the Everglades now, tomorrow we'll go head to head with some gators, possibly snorkle. I cannot believe this life I have created, I'm seriously thinking of working for a different outdoor ed program out here in a year or two's time then law school. |
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